>>674608When i'm /out/ i hike a lot and sometimes get into a subtle trance like high comparable with runners high. I start to have circular thoughts, thinking about the same thing over and over again until it becomes unclear which is the cause of that particular thought and which is the result, and there arises some kind of intrinsic conflict. It doesn't give me answers to questions per se but it does give an opportunity to analyse and look at things from a different perspective, most of the times this will be a more confronting point of view because i'm spending so much time thinking about it. This also points out how important certain nuances of the topic are which at first may seem trivial. When I'm /out/ I miss certain things, especially human contact, music, general distraction and comfort. I till a certain extent i enjoy this, as it is part of the experience. Compare it with how no one likes to get punched in the face, yet a lot of people enjoy practicing martial arts. This also gives me the opportunity to look at what is important in my life and what isn't, or what shouldn't. I also contemplate about the beauty of nature, and the wildness of life in it. For example if i see a deer, i will question where it sleeps and how it experiences the night. I will fantasize and romanticize the harshness of its every day life, but at the same time i'm actually submerged in its environment so in a way its feels very tangible and real.
