Is it worth it?

I change my mind so often that I have absolutely no idea what I want to do. Up until I was 15 I wanted to be a soldier, then I started thinking about things and removed my red badge of courage. These last three years I've been toying with ideas such as an animator, artist, archaeologist, astronomer, entomologist, zoologist, the list goes on and on.

I question van life because through all of my deluded aspirations, the wild always calls. I'm young, and it's obvious that the "life" people want for me is full of misery. They make memes and shit about how their life is falling apart, well I'd rather die of frost on the side of a desert road due to engine failure than suffer through my 9-5.

Perhaps I'm a coward, but what are you gonna do, judge me?