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Walp, this is a bit of an awkward post to write, but I urgently need your help, my fellow /vid/rgins.
So, I've been directing a small short since late December and, if everything goes right, the filming should probably be wrapped by the end of the month. The whole thing is basically just a brief romance shot with two college colleagues of mine as leads set to music with some tonal twists and subtle symbolism that points to a somewhat less superficial meta-narrative and, considering I've done some photography but never video before, the whole thing is going at least somewhat better than expected. I'll be shooting a couple more scenes tomorrow, hopefully it will be the second last day of filming before the wrap, but here's the issue: one of those scenes, the last one we'll get done by the end of the day, is a sex scene with full frontal nudity from the female lead.
How do I even contain my actual diagnosed assburgers while directing such a thing, /vid/? It's really disturbing me because, as a director, it sort of is my duty to pour out all the emotional attachment into the writing stages and actually execute my vision during the shooting with a clear detached mind, but I'm also a pathetic socially reclusive NEET who has never seen a naked woman before and therefore will probably be shocked by the mere sight of the main female lead doing a full nudie. It shouldn't be such a hard thing, I already have almost every single shot planned out and the actual work should be to just transpose that planning that into the camera, but what if I can't handle the pressure? What if I get an inappropriate boner? What if my voice stutters really bad and they see through my fears and insecurities and I start crying?! And worse, what are people going to think of this?!?! My very first proper film, something I've wanted to do since I was a kid, and it will end in a blatant sex scene! How do I even show it to my family and friends without being harshly judged, /vid/!?! I'M SCARED!
