>>2901407I don't mind putting in the work. Although hours differ I don't mind pulling all nighters, having crazy deadlines or traveling to do what I love. I love doing fashion editorial photography and how It helps me express myself, artistically.
Unfortunately I hate the fashion biz itself. Hard work and integrity isn't valued much. Being a flamboyant fuck-up often is. Even smaller boutiques seem to like the idea of having an arrogant twat taking their pictures, because that's the "fashion experience". I feel it's a disease. We make make-belief, none of us are a Mandela or Mother Theresa.
I'm happy to experience that I do get booked back for my professionalism and that especially models recommend me to clients for being able to reach the right vibe on set.
That being said, I think the people I work with are often extremely stressful. Having make-up artists bitching at nice models because "honey, I did Prada", having art directors fucking over people who are nice enough to let us use their venue for a location, and being looked down upon for no reason what so ever often eats me up inside. I'm actually thinking about working with clients less (having my agency sell my work after I made it, rather than having it commisioned) and doing more (exclusive) portraits and weddings, simply because the attitude people take to the table is killing me.
I'm not sure whether being introverted is a real problem here (as I mentioned I'm considered friendly, outgoing, spontaneous and even loud at times), but having trouble dealing with people who have no decensy and are often mean for the sake of "looking cool", is. I worked hard for an excellent reference list and I seem to have the talent to be at the top, but the shit people spew at eachother constantly is weighing me down.
