>>3028648Google Translate:
2016.09.17
These days to find a new way to calm down, to fall on their own is a kind of contend for depression, whenever I touch the ground completely lying, pedestrians, ah, the vehicle can be from my body Trampled on the past, rolling over the past. And this time the consciousness will become sober, wisdom and memory seems to have increased, all the events of concern are vivid, and even recite the parties said, 1997 white Baoshan said in prison: I went out To kill If sentenced me to 20 years, I went out to kill adults. If sentenced me to life imprisonment, I commuted to kill, do not move adults, and I went to kindergarten to kill the child.
I can always hear the sound of the shot, at the beginning of my time a little scared, a long time, also used to, and that sound like someone with a hammer to my head nail, like there is a construction site, Cover the skyscrapers, built for so many years did not cover, a lot of homeless people in my head inside crying ah trouble, I want to be deadly, they do not let me sleep, do not let me go out. Do not sleep Ye Hao, do not go out Yeah, anyway, go out every day, put on carefully selected good clothes, according to the mirror how to see like to go to their own funeral, the negative was so grand. Every destination is like to mourning their own to rush to the hall.
I am also afraid to go out to hear those who care and doubt, "you look so happy, how could depression?", "What can you have depression, I still depressed it," "you are always so hypocritical," "he In the pretentious "... ... these sounds better than my head sound makes me nervous. In all involved in two or more people in the interpersonal relationship, or I will keep talking, or I will have been silent. All the pretensions are easy to make me exhausted.
