>>16654014Absolutely. It’s taken a few months to work through my shame, and fear of ways I may have acted that I don’t remember. Once my confidence began to shimmer again I got addicted to that - people, life, stopped isolating. It also gives me confidence about quitting nicotine, eating better, breaking other habits and forming better ones. I love it anon, I’m glad you’re you again :,)
>>16655204Sorry to hear that brother. I relate to a lot of what you said and can tell you there is an end to the tunnel. Nurture your self-worth above all else. There’s really only two ways for you to go, the choice is always yours to choose you.
Remember in Gattaca when Ethan Hawks character got leg lengthening surgery, he said something like
>in that pain all I could think was that I’m now 2 inches closer to my goalFor what it’s worth, I fell down my stairs last February, “traumatic brain injury”, back contusions, skull fractures - didn’t think I’d ever leave my bed, let alone function. Half of my face didn’t work for a month, couldn’t hear, the pain was ceaseless. But it went from thinking my life is over, to thinking the entire year was a wash, to readjusted adjusted expectations, then readjusted desires, and finally a genuine rebirth. That’s why this year is important to me- because through that struggle I grew a lot, and ‘24 can be looked at as a productive if i utilize the wisdom gained.
Be good to yourself, we are jackasses here but I love this board. You’re going to be looking back and be able to smile and take great pride in gutting it through your rehab. Whatever hobbies work, spoil yourself if you can. Don’t isolate.
>>16656676Yeah big deal.
>>16656684I’m gonna win the lotto for you.
