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Mayubros I'm so depressed...
last night I spent the night at my parents just because of how tired I was as I stopped through. I've been really pissed off lately and said some things in anger I probably should not have, or worded differently. Shit that's been building for 20+ years, some things you just can't shake as a kid. And they denied pretty much all of it as to ever happening. Half assed I'm sorry on the bits they did admit to happening. Not sure why it came out but it did. Just been so exhausted and beat down like I can barely function. Down in the low 140s when I'm normally like 25-30 pounds more healthily. Feel on the brink of death and don't even care. Told them let's call my brother so he could tell them I wasn't lying about any of this shit, that it all happened. They were adamantly against that suggestion (wasn't even 8pm yet). Fucking pissed me off to no end to just be dismissed and how fucked up my life is in huge part of because of all this bullshit I put up with for years but could never fucking feel like speaking up about. Like a bubble of rage just popped in my head.
Trying to write a birthday letter to close friend that saved me from just killing myself this year. Can barely do it, thankfully it's already rough drafted then typed to a final, and I'm just transcribing it on paper but my mind just is there for it.
Sorry for the blogpost, I'm sure nobody cares, guess it doesn't matter anyway. Love you Mayubros, thanks for letting my type this here I don't really have anywhere else to.
