>>11255882if you really want to kill yourself and therefore feel like you have nothing to lose, why don't you try and live an odd and on the edge lifestyle? take the kerouac route and go train hopping with other bums. you'd surprised at what you can find in the world. i recently spoke to a guy who lived that way, a nice dude who's been all around the country. if you have no trains in your area, you could always hang around other people in mobile trades. fisherman, truck drivers..etc. it's a vast world, within and without.
