>>12152014No.
I don't CARE about getting a 10/10 gf or anything stupid like that. I'm at peace with virginity.
I just wish I could talk to someone sometimes, have a friend or two, have at least a few good memories, but I couldn't even manage that. Just a worthless piece of shit from a piece of shit family.
It's almost over, at least. My suicide is a work in progress. I was born with a heart condition and I've let myself balloon up to 310 lbs, chain smoking and drinking as well, wouldn't surprise me if I'm diabetic now, too. Don't know when my heart will explode but I just hope it happens while I'm asleep.