>>12873135i had to undergo a surgery for a congenital condition (that means i was born with it and it wasn't vaccine related, retards) and the surgeon told me the literature and data points to around a 50% case of dying during surgery with my particular case. there's really not much you can do besides kill time until the day of reckoning, sadly. I thought i'd have all my favorite meals, watch favorite movies, play some favorite games from the time I got the news to the date of my surgery (around 3 weeks), and I basically did nothing fun but lay in bed and browse 4chan halfheartedly. it's hard to be positive when there's a CHANCE you'll die shortly, i imagine it's almost impossible to find any joy in anything knowing you will in a matter of weeks or months. and at least in my case i would have just gone to sleep and not woken up, in the case of someone with terminal cancer i imagine it gets agonizing and the quality of life is progressively worse and worse until you probably just want to die.
