>>13078308I know wherr you're coming from to an extent as I have similar experiences, although not the exact same experience as you so I can't really know everything, but, my first long-term girlfriend I just stayed with because of pity, I took her virginity when she had like ten dudes in love with her, including one of my best friends, which I realized afterwards because I had sex with her in his house, on his bed... There were a lot of good times but I never really felt shit and it didn't mean anything to me, and I ended up hating her for a while due to that, but I didn't really hate her, I hated the way I felt living that way. Eventually I left her and found out the grass is greener, and although I had sex with many women, even the best sex or memories don't really mean much in the long run, because things you do that carry on to the future are the most fulfilling. Obviously, for you, that's your daughter, and that also means your family and having great birthday's and Christmas's and trips to the zoo and all that shit. And in the future, she has to have her own life and she needs to get married and not get KWAB'd by having a suicide bitch father or divorced parents which her partners family will look down on. I'm not going to go into my own personal shit, but in recent years I had a similar situation to you, basically the main reason was my dream career wasn't going well and I felt like I was too shit to ever do it no matter what and time was running out. The perfect place to job myself was the train crossing by my house, because you can just suicide dive right when the train is coming and it's over. Then I thought about my family always knowing that this place by the house was where I killed myself. I thought about people looking back on my career and seeing I ended up a dimeless bitch who killed themselves without accomplishing anything.
