>>15836456You don't have to enjoy life. You do things first, and then every once in a while something good might happen as a result of your actions, which means you're going to automatically pursue those results once again. Doing things for people is a good example of that, because the results can be immediate, such as eliciting an emotional response. That's why people get high off of wrestling or stand up comedy or whatever.
Now that you're a piece of shit, what stops you from trying all sorts of things and see what happens? It's not like you've got some reputation to lose. Volunteer, become an indie shitter, clean up your local street, drive a bulldozer, learn how to paint a building, who gives a shit. It's a vast world out there.
