>>4965506I've been to rehab a few years ago for benzos and booze. It saved me at the time. It's not really an option work wise right now, I'd be homeless really fast. And right now I'm not actually physically addicted to anything other than kratom (and not even badly) and nicotine. Just got stimulant psychosis again from doing RC stims and high dose tryptamines then didn't eat or sleep barely for days. Taking low benzo doses is letting me function somewhat normally but it's a fine line between too much and too little, then addiction if I do that too long. And I don't want to be addicted to benzos again.
I just love doing drugs and am always depressed as shit so will do just about anything. I probably just need a healthy hobby and to see a therapist or something, work out, I dunno.
I'm definitely accountable for the all the dumb shit I do and hate myself for it desu. At best I can say I at least stopped drinking completely a few months ago but that's about it. And only because my liver was in severe pain.
Sorry for ruining yall's Stardom thread with my blog. Thanks for the prayer anon.
