I have stormed out of work at least three times in the last month. Every time I leave it's because somebody says something to piss me off in the last hour that we're open. They've been patient with me so far but we have to be reaching the limit of their forgiveness.
Emily has completely destroyed my ability to trust and connect with other people. I also have no long-term goals or expectations nor do I have any desire to work hard or be a good person anymore. You piss me off an I'm going home. Fire me and maybe I'll get another job or maybe I'll suicide by cop. The world is really my oyster when you think about it.
I look at the Easter bunny picture my niece drew for me and I think "that poor girl, somebody should explain to her that I'm a woman abuser and don't deserve her love". Seriously, nobody will tell me what I did to Emily but I think they should at least tell my niece.
Fuck I want somebody to kill me. I'm also a misogynist now and I hate myself for that.