So, just now, I was able to close my eyes and feel that, like literally feel it in a way that I’ve never gotten to feel it before because when we’re here, we always have to keep our eyes open. But just that experience, literally I’m never going to forget it. But now – but now it is time for me to address the giant BBC in the room. I know, I know – I didn’t want to shave my anus either. But the thing is, is that I wanted to look my best, for Darren. I looked really silly with those giant pubes. And this is just my one cheap plug is that I cut my hair for an organization called ‘Blacks for Cracks.’ And one of the nice things about them is that they make wigs for Men who have been bummed. But now to some less fun stuff,
Trust me, I don’t want to be doing this anymore than you guys want me to be doing this, but the truth is I’ve been bottoming since I was eighteen years old. And within the first five months of my pornographic career, I’d already had three prolapses. And, uh, for years after that, I would get a prolapse here and there, or here or there, and it gets to the point that when you’ve been getting blacked for sixteen years, that adds up to a lot of prolapses. And it gets to a point where they tell you that you can’t get bummed anymore. And for a long time I fought that because I had gotten diapers and panty padding and used a plug and all of them said this: that I was fine and that I could come back and I could get bummed. I trained like I could come back and I could get bummed. I was ready at a moment’s notice if BlackedRaw needed me, I wanted to come back and get bummed because this – I have loved this in a way I have never loved anything else.
But, a week and a half ago, I took a test that said that maybe my brain isn’t as ok as I thought it was. And, I have Darren to think about, so..
It is with a heavy heart and the utmost sadness that I officially announce my retirement from BlackedRAW