>"This is where I first saw the signs of anxiety. I remember leading up to this match, I thought and thought and thought about it in my kitchen and in my living room. I would take my iPad downstairs or whatever, at my old house at the time, and I would watch wrestling and try to think of ideas and, how can we make this match a classic? How can we make this match live up to the expectation, almost the unreal expectations fans had probably put up there, and probably the same with us, the unreal expectations we had put up there for ourselves. I remember dude, there were nights where, and I never realized this until I started talking with my therapist, but there were nights back to back to back where I couldn't fall asleep because I couldn't get this match out of my head because I couldn't figure out certain points of the match. I pride myself on being able to usually do that, to be able to structure matches together pretty quick and figure it out. I would be lying if I said I wasn't excited, but more than anything, I was nervous and anxious about the match.”
>“When I say I can see a match play out in my head, I don't mean step by step. I mean, the beats and the drama and the story that we're going to tell and I couldn't figure it out. I would stay up until twelve, one, two in the morning and couldn't fall asleep. I would lay in bed and try to force myself to fall asleep. I would get up so pissed at myself because I couldn't figure out the match and because I couldn't make myself fall asleep. I was mad at myself for the two things that I wanted to do, but I couldn't do them. It would just drive me crazy.”
>“I remember waking my wife up one morning. It was like two or three in the morning. I was like, 'Babe, I cannot fall asleep. I can't get this match down. I'm going to shit the bed, blah, blah, blah. Thinking back on it now, that was the first sign of anxiety for me and probably my first first anxiety attack, but I didn't know what anxiety was at the time.”
