>>9996970First of all, you're not going to fucking kill yourself. Don't even joke about shit like that, those words are poison.
Second of all, a woman isn't going to solve your problems. Matter of fact, she's half-expecting you to do that for her.
Third of all, you hate your job? Fucking quit. You owe it nothing, least of all your fucking misery.
Fourth of all, you're depressed because you do not exercise. Go out and go for a simple walk and make it a habit of doing it. Take yiour cellphone camera and take pictures of the pleasant things you have in your neighborhood now that it is sunnier, warmer, and spring is in the air. Flowers are always pretty. And then when that becomes a habit, walk your ass on down to a gym and ask about either personal training or a membership. You will lift weights and get your endorphins going that MAKE you not feel depressed. And before you leave for your next walk and your next work-out, you will wake up every morning and you will look in the mirror with your fists on your hips like Superman with your chest out and shoulders back. Then you're going to do the whole Hulk Hogan pose routine. Then you're going to do the Lex Luger crab pose. Even doing just that puts you mentally in a good state for the rest of the day.
And finally, by actively pursuing that what it is that you want and desire most in the world the universe will conspire to attract more of that into your life. A girl, a bevy of friends; these are side quests to the main goal of your self-fullfilment. And no matter how lonely and unlikable you think you are in public settings, you are NEVER as unwelcome, unpleasant and unwanted as the jannies. You have even THAT much going for you, lad.
Trust in us and we shall never let you down. You soon too shall be spreading the pert and tight buttcheeks of a Stacy, Trish or Mickie of your own and when you finally do, let us all know the richness of the aroma after you take a big ol' long fucking whiff.
Cursum perficio.