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If things really get that bad, you can just walk - or in all honesty, run - away, leaving it behind. It is a painful prospect, to be sure - but one that you are not unfamiliar with. How much have you given up on over the years, simply to remain safe? At this point, such depths may be unfathomable; you probably wouldn't even realize everything you have forgone, missed out on. You will, however, allow yourself a peek through the shutters in the doors ... which now that you look seem to have shaken themselves open during the ride.
" ... count of twenty-six, count of - "
Maker's Mercy, you <span class="mu-i">hope</span> that they shook themselves open. Otherwise ... no, no - you cannot give in to such senseless panic. If they were opened by someone else, would they close them? And even if you suppose that they were, and that this peeper <span class="mu-i">did</span> close the fraying shutters, what would they have seen? You, yes, they would have seen you - but with your eyes <span class="mu-s">closed</span> you gutter-borne mental derelict. Be calm! Be calm, and take your look.
"Count of ... thirty? Oh, on the Heights of Hell. Count of thirty-one, count of thirty-two ..."
There are many things that prove to be easier thought than done though. This among them. Cautiously, you try to lift yourself off of the damned cushions - which you are most assuredly going to be using as kindling at the first available opportunity - only to find that the bench, and even the floor beneath it, creaks as you shift your weight. Wasn't this silent as you got in to the cabin ... or is it that as you are now trying to be quiet that you finally notice the noise? You are beset with second thoughts, but these ... these you manage to push through. You simply have to know what is outside that window.
"...count of forty-three, count of - Fray this floor! - forty-four, count of forty-five ..."
That is your problem, isn't it? You were Woven with a cat's mind and a chicken's heart. A dangerous, dangerous combination. Scant solace may be taken, however, that there is yet to be any indication that either your abundance of curiosity or you absence of courage is going to doom you in the next minute or so. Though it seems like the floor of the cabin creaks like a ship in a swell, your long legs are able to make it to the door in one tenuous stride.
" ... count of fifty-one, count of fifty-two, count of fifty-three ..."
Unfortunately for you, no solace may be taken at the sight out of the window. The angle is poor, and not like to be improved by taking the risk of opening the shutters. The lighting is even worse. Immediately, you can see that you are off of the street and on a yard. But it is the yard of Cancer House? Is it just another portion of Nasturtium's yard, one that you didn't see? Is it somewhere else entirely?
" ... count of fifty-nine, count of sixty, count of sixty-one ..."