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Farnese recalls the one and only time she was challenged in her narrative. The one time a man asked her to a dance, and she said 'yes'.
All those years ago, a worthless Midland cur, no doubt desperate to be accepted into the most prestigious family name in Vritannis, proposed to entertain the only daughter of the Vandimion siblings in the ceremony commemorating the kingdom's victory against the hundred year war.
She accepted, instead of simply dancing with her servant Serpico for the night like she always did, but only for the sake of humiliating the ignorant swine, to put him in his place, dominate him in his own game. This would be the last time these lowly men would ever propose of putting their hands on her holy body!
What the young Vandimion was not expecting, was for the young, carefree noble of the Santana estate to ignore her attempts completely. He knew he was dodging her stomps, he knew how close he was to getting kicked in the groin, and he twisted that into a spectactle to show how he was the one dominating her!
"What have I done wrong, Lady Farnese? I thought we were simply having a graceful and fun dance."
It was only a dance, only a dance, he said! The nerve of him to play stupid when his intentions were clear as day! Obiously that heretic was salivating at the mere thought of taking a young maiden's virginity and manipulating her family into being a heir!
She would not stand for this! Were her father here, she would ask his men to behead him personally and throw his decapitated corpse to the streets where it belongs!
...But father would not come. Not after she burnt through half the palace back home after her father tried to engage her in a political marriage. She would be disappointed with her father, if she did not already know that he did not know her.
And how could he? No one understood her truthfully! They could never discover the impure thoughts she had when seeing the beautiful, erotic images of the moving embers. In a moment of weakness, she let the motive for her sexual awakening dominate her into a frenzy in a desperate attempt to feel power in her ivory tower.
At the cost of her freedom, now Farnese was being sent to a monastery to learn about the ways of the lord. But with that, came the liberation of her guilt. The See was always quick to burn the pagans, and since her young days, she felt such a lovely warmth under her stomach... Now she could rationalize a way to see all the torture and death the church would do to the innocents, and somehow look righteous and moral by overseeing each one of them.
