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You are angry at first, and then ashamed. You cry. You actually thought he cared about you.
You aren't stupid- you know there are a lot of guys out there who just want women for their bodies- yours especially. And as your form fills out as you mature more and more; the looks and little comments under their breath get more and more blatant and obvious. The more you have to be on your guard- though the Hegemony of course is very safe in terms of sex crime, for obvious reasons, its the little tiny actions and creeps that get the most out of every little shudder of revulsion or whatever-
But you <span class="mu-i">thought</span> Radjo was different. He was always so nice. You never really liked any boys in that way, just little crushes... but he was different. You thought he was! What a fool you were. Even worse, you actually felt bad for telling him off. You even felt bad for ignoring him when you were going through that intense Supreme Rulership training- like you were giving something up to follow it. And now that it's over and you wanted to go see where he could lead you... this. It soiled it! All those nice experiences, all that fun you used to have as little kids... all ruined because of some Alpha jock persona who wants to show off to his friends!
You're crying again when your mother finds you. Your mother, such a confident, compassionate person.
<span class="mu-b">”H-He.... I thought he didn't...”</span>
<span class="mu-g">”Aww, it's okay sweetheart, I'm hear for you. What's wrong?</span>
<span class="mu-b">”Radjo... I thought he liked me, like liked me liked me, but he just sees me like a piece of meat.”</span>
<span class="mu-g">”What? Why do you think that?”</span>
<span class="mu-b">”I heard him talking to his friends, and he said he- he wanted to pop my cherry and gross stuff like that!!! I'm so mad- and I-”</span>
<span class="mu-g">”Aww, let it all out baby girl. You're okay. Maybe he was just trying to talk big in front of his friends.”</span>
<span class="mu-b">”NO- he meant it!- sniff- thanks mom...”</span>
Your mother holds you on the floor of your room. So overcome with emotions- just a few weeks ago, you would have practiced your breathing excercises and visualizing tactics to banish all self doubt and “feminine weakness” from your mind, as per your Supreme Ruler training- but now you just don't give a shit about that anymore. You've spent your whole young adult life trying to learn how to be a better <span class="mu-i">man</span>, instead of learning how to be a <span class="mu-i">woman</span>. Maybe you should ask your mom for advice?
>Ask her about Boys
>Ask her about Dad