>>56119221st month
It is all over now. All of them are cursed to be barely intelligent enough to even breathe. That plantation is ruined. I can barely tell how long time has passed.
1st month
My knife has decapitated me and severed all four of my limbs. I should have passed on, but it seems that I am now a Krasue.
Addendum: It seems to correlate with the number offenses I have made. 8 people corresponded to 8 cuts — one to my head, two to each of my limbs.
I wonder where Bua is right now. Probably living better than a vagrant. If you find this, I’m sorry, professor. I had to.
Some notes were quite personal.
30th of 3rd month
I have found a place to stay. It is a forest in east Clawflash where a brothel dumps the unwanted children of prostitutes. There is a shoveler that gives me dried fruits.
2nd of 4th month
Sira is a strange person. He frequently visits this forest to watch the fishes in the river and plant flowers for the burial sites of the child corpses. On Sablestream new years, he had with him a large bowl of cockles. It tastes good. He was fun to talk to.
10th of 4th month
Sira is quite a strange person. He says he likes me. I don’t understand why he would want to court someone this old. I barely have any possessions, let alone land, and my body is more akin to a cold doll than actual flesh. I would be a terrible partner.
20th of 4th month
Tonight, Sira and I have consummated. He was wonderful. I can’t wait to do it again.
I always thought sex was supposed to be this great accomplishment that separated the successful from failures. To be an adult. To prove that you are good at life.
It was not. It was a nice experience, yes, but I have misplaced the importance of such for very long.
And some were pure horniness. Sort of.
Some passages are underlined and marked as 'lewd' but are quite mundane in terms of intimacy.
A woman being given back her handkerchief and briefly touching a man’s hand is considered erotic?
Sometimes she even adds her own passages of the characters having sex. Sira finds the extreme inaccuracy of it quite amusing. A bucket’s worth of semen would be a nightmare to clean up.
Certain parts of the pages feel rougher than others. Sira hopes it was dried water or saliva.
