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No no... you shouldn't be rude to your elders. Especially if that “rudeness” includes assault. Maybe his wisdom may be of some value to you.
<span class="mu-b">”My apologies Sir. I should be more careful.”</span>
“You are clearly distracted, my boy. Please share.”
<span class="mu-b">”...Yes, I am dealing with a lot of anger. I feel like nothing I do matters. Every time I try to reach my goal, I am blown away by something else. Like I have no control and no matter how hard I try, I can't achieve my simple goal every one has no trouble achieving.”</span>
“Oh, it must be losing your virginity then.”
<span class="mu-b">”...Listen, I'm trying to be polite here, old man, don't start insulting me now...”</span>
“Heh, is it an individual woman you're having trouble with then? One who just ignores all your attempts to woo her?”
<span class="mu-b">”...Yes.”</span>
“Well, let's examine the root cause of it. Why does it matter to you so much if she doesn't return your feelings? Why not simply move on to someone or something else to occupy your time and energy?”
<span class="mu-b">”Because that makes me feel worthless. I want to be loved, like everyone else.”</span>
“So, you have reproductive anxiety then? Why does it matter to you if you are never loved?”
<span class="mu-b">”What do you mean why?! That something everyone wants- that's a part of life. Love, sex, children- it's all one package! That's what happens between <span class="mu-i"><span class="mu-s">Boys and Girls</span></span>! If I can't even do that, then that means I have failed! Failed as an organism- that's the closest thing the Hegemony even teaches as the purpose of life, isn't it? Survival of the species and passing on? And I also have failed as a man- of course it makes me anxious and insecure! People act like being insecure is some failure of your character, but only when it comes to something like sex or height or whatever else. Why? Everyone is insecure about themselves or the world; everyone worries about things. But when it comes to never losing your virginity or having children suddenly it means there is something <span class="mu-i">wrong</span> with you- but only for men. Men who can't pass on are losers. I <span class="mu-i">don't want to be a loser!</span> There is nothing more complex then that!”</span>
“And you think that something as banal as reproduction is all you need to feel fulfilled then? To “pass on” well, as a life worth lived?”
<span class="mu-b">”In so many words- yes! My ancestors fought to get me here- the unbroken line of my fathers and mothers came to me- if I can't even manage that, then I'm a genetic dead end! I'm the end of their long effort, all my fault. Failure!”</span>
“Well, what is your great grandfather's name?”
<span class="mu-b">”Wh-”</span>
“You're telling me that you can't even go back three generations of this <span class="mu-i">single unbroken line</span>? And yet you put so much emphasis and energy on this vain consequence of a little sexual fun time. Absurd.”
