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You think back to what Doc explained to you and Phascomon, regarding server markers and unifying traits between Digimon. Squid is an enthusiast, but her expertise centers around the City’s mechanisms, not its wildlife.
“You know about the Digital World theory, right?”
“Yeah! I’ve been talking to Doc Cracker a lot. Is that where you want to go?”
“It’s where Phascomon wants to be. His goal is to become some kind of leader. He wants to carve out some kind of spot in there where he’s in charge, and rule it right.”
“Sounds like what Wind wants.”
You know she doesn’t mean anything by it, but you feel an instinctive spark of anger.
“It’s not like that. He’ll be different.”
“Different how?”
“He knows not to discard people along the way, for one.”
Her face falls, and you realize that you’re the one who misspoke this time.
“Sorry. Let’s talk about something else.”
“Yeah.”
The two of you kick your feet idly for a few moments, before she starts talking again.
“I guess that’s why the two of you are such strong partners? You’ve both got your own dreams to fulfill.”
“Yeah. Exactly.”
“But what’re you going to do when you reach the top? Isn’t that where you both have to part ways?”
You clutch the hem of your dress, bunching up the fabric. She keeps talking, unaware.
“He wants to see the real Digital World, and you want to see the Real World. So you’ll need to say goodbye. Isn’t that sad? I wouldn’t be able to part with ToyAgumon like that. He’s been with me for years!”
You don’t want to think about this. You really don’t. Every time the topic has come up, you’ve felt the need to push it aside and deal with it later. You hate being confronted with this reality.
“I…”
Your mind races to come up with something. Anything to rationalize that problem away. You’ve only been with him for a few months, right? Maybe you could stand to say goodbye. It would hurt, but you’ll live on. Especially when you have your reward ahead of you. You’re sure he’s going to be happy too. You’ve already helped him reach heights of strength he could never even imagine.
But even as you mull over these feelings, you feel a sense of shame at the way you're coping. Ultimately, you return to your tried and true method of not thinking about it. Once again, you push the whole train of thought out of your head.
