>>5199106"I have tried to be honest with my feelings before, it only lead to more suffering... It's the reason I found this calling... I was foolish enough to believe Serpico would understand how I feel."
"He was my personal servant ever since I was young. The only one who never left my side. No matter how much pain I made him go through, he would always obey me. He was everything I wanted in a man, and before I caught wind of it, we had already grown through our teenage years together. He was the only one that could understand my depraved mind, whenever other nobles tried to have their way with me in gatherings, I ordered him to duel whoever offered my hand in a dance. That idiot never bothered to actually win, always ending it in a draw... But there was one time where he could not defend me from my foe... My father."
"Father wanted me to accept another man in an arranged marriage, and I desperately wanted to escape my conditions... But when I opened up to Serpico and pleaded for him to save me, to run away with me towards our freedom... He rejected me. My only knight failed me in my time of need... So I had to take measures in my own hands, and burn the house down..."
"So that's why you were already in the way to the See when we met at Wyndham... Tell me, when I left your side at the ball, did that make you upset?" You asked Farnese after getting to understand some aspects of her craziness.
"I still wanted to escape, but I knew I could not trust him, so I thought I could make him jealous by dancing with someone else. Even if I wanted nothing to do with you, you gave me hope of escaping, but I knew it would not last. You only cared for me because of my looks, my name, my high status. But..."
"But?"
"Do you know what he said to me after we were back on our journey?"
<span class="mu-s">"Seems like a swell lad aside from the puking part, hopefully you two can warm up to each other on a less dangerous meeting."
"Already afraid of being replaced? Maybe I'll find someone who does not disappoint me."
"Why would I be afraid right now? You could use some company other than mine."[/i:lit]
"I lived my entire life with him, and he still had never seen me as his woman... Why should I care about what you can do for me, this is the path I chose, and I've grown past those pesky feelings of mine. This is not a phase that can be swayed by a man's words, not my father's not Serpico's, and certainly not yours."
>I've also been rejected before, get over yourself.>He's not obligated to accept your feelings, surely he must have his reasons.>Serpico was right, you are too self absorbed.>Let's say Serpico accepted your feelings, then what?>How many whippings will it take for you to forgive him?>Write-in.</span> 