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You coughed, all this talking about sensitive subjects was getting to you. It was reviving your insecurities and problems with the modern world. The things you'd get laughed at for having, 'first world problems'. The thing you would get told wasn't as bad as you thought it was because you had an apartment and could buy electronics.
Well, you did, thanks to money sent from the old people. If you were totally on your own, you wouldn't be able to make rent when its due. You were stuck in the mud, not being able to live out the convictions you gained as you aged.
"Ma and Pa didn't want me being an officer. In a city like New York, rife with gang violence and shootings, they were afraid I would end up dying somehow. Maybe some dopehead high on narcotics trying to rob a children's playground would pull a gun or knife on me. But then, even if that didn't happen, there's problems with the system too. Crooks get a slap on the wrist and go free instead of to imprisonment. They would probably go out and do the same shit again. It disgusted me. And in Manhattan? It's gotten so bad... they'd ask me to lock up an innocent for defending himself. That's a deep end I don't want to go off on."
You shake your head.
"Life now is alright. I'm not gonna pretend it isn't. I'm just still 'getting there', y'know? I was trying to get a better job still. I was getting interviewed in a bank once, haven't heard back from them... pa is always offering me to come work with his gig. I might just have to, doing on my own isn't looking too hot. And that's a little about myself. So, what do you think? Oh..."
Your foot hit the bottom steps of the Hakurei Shrine. You hadn't even noticed, too busy talking with Reimu. Well, at least you were there now.
The Shrine Maiden stepped forward and sat down on the steps. You gently set the cart to its feet and came over and joined her after the long walk. Your feet were a little sore.
<span class="mu-i">"I think you and me both have problems. The kind that aren't good to bottle up. The kind that, talking about them makes you feel just a little better about it. Even if it isn't much."</span>
"Yeah..."
<span class="mu-i">"You just want a sense of duty, don't you?"</span>
You nodded.
"And to feel like I have somewhere I belong."
<span class="mu-i">"I get that..."</span> She sighed, resting her chin on the back of her two hands.
<span class="mu-i">"Even though I'm the Miko of this big Shrine, sometimes it feels like I'm missing something. I think I wouldn't have to tell you. I think you already know yourself, since you've been looking at it these past few days. A-And I'm hard to admit it, because I'm just a very stubborn girl! Hard-headed as Marisa would have said. You know, it does feel bad when I think about how my god is... really mad with me, and there's not much I can do about it because I just don't care enough to."</span>
