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>Fix him
"Pat?" you say, to distract yourself from the eyes. "Aren't you going to help?"
"With what?" Pat's posture is maddeningly relaxed. "So Bug Man's C.O.S. is a bug man. Were you not expecting that? Everything else appears standard."
You glare. "Besides," she says. "I <span class="mu-i">said</span> I wasn't available to help with side effects."
Wracked by the throes of conscience. "Go to hell," you inform her, and hunch back over the bug thing. "Gil? It's me. We're going to fix this, alright? Just like I said earlier, we— I don't know if I can slay Pat yet, but I'm just going to skip ahead to the fixing. Just like last time. I think it'll be even quicker than last time, um— I don't think I'll have to muck around in there." The eyes are widened. "I'm going to commune with you a little bit, is all. Don't be worried."
A string of clicking leaks from the slit. "You're going to <span class="mu-i">what?</span>" Pat says.
"Shut up." You press your fingers against the bug thing's— you guess its forehead, since it's above the eyes. "Don't be worried," you say again, for somebody's benefit. "It'll be fine."
It must be fine, is what you're doing your best to project into the world. You will make it be fine. It can't not be fine, with you around. You'll merely use your pure heart, plus your keen and perceptive vision, to look at Gil— <span class="mu-i">look</span> at him, God-damnit, you have to— to fix him in your noble gaze, lumps and all, and feel a <span class="mu-r">pity</span> feel a <span class="mu-r">contempt</span> a <span class="mu-r">disgust</span> an urge to put him out of his <span class="mu-r">misery</span> have to feel horrible things, and channel them to a knifepoint, and thrust— and see <span class="mu-r">through.</span>
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Horse Face was bone-dry. Guppy was wet and dim. Both of them were still. Gil, one long blare of static, is a loosed current, a random sprint, a hailstorm. If you had ears and gums they'd ring and throb. If you had a skull he'd be beating himself against it, but you're all empty space so he's just slamming himself against himself, over and over, blindly and bullishly, and you can't bear it a moment longer (you <span class="mu-r">pity</span> him you <span class="mu-r">despise</span> him) so you wrench existence into him and see again. Inside Gil is beetles. Wall-to-wall beetles. Slick, green, squirming, mute.
Inside the beetles is you. You're buried alive again, which fails to bother you: you've <span class="mu-i">seen</span> the swarm before, and known it, and got out of it just fine. And that was before something coiled in you. Imagine <span class="mu-r">h</span>ow easy would it be to escape now? You wouldn't even have to dissolve yourself first, or claw your way back up to safety after. You wouldn't have to entwine yourself with any disgusting pagan thoughtforms. None of that. You order the beetles gone, and they're gone; you order Gil here and he is. That's what power is, Lottie.
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