>>5311651Questing is... Worrisome? I worry a lot, it's how I am. I worry about people getting bored, I worry I'm getting worse at writing, I make terribly unnecessary and often irrelevant comparisons and fret. Overall I enjoy it, or else I wouldn't still be doing it, but despite Valen's general progression broadly being planned since its inception, I'd be lying if I said I hadn't wondered if maybe it should have ended when the rite did back at Arc 1. All of the stated goals had wrapped up, momentum had reached a good point, I think I could have stopped the quest there and no one would have been disappointed.
That didn't happen of course, so we're in it for the longhaul now.
Things besides <span class="mu-i">me</span> questing are less fine. A lot of the quests I used to follow have dropped off, but I try and keep in touch with their QMs. Sometimes I poke my head into new quests to see how they're doing, but it's rare I stay long. None of the QMs lately have had a writing style/quality that was capable of keeping me engaged.
I'm actually super picky about writing quality! I read a lot, almost constantly, and if the quality isn't to a certain degree it can make me physically nauseous to try consume. I assure you that's not a joke or exaggeration, bad writing and narrative execution actually makes me sick. In the past I've read some things so horrible I walked away from it with a splitting headache, disoriented, and wanting to throw up. It's not like the content itself was uniquely bad, but that I'm sensitive to it. I have a history of going into obsessive stupors where the only thing that keeps me from crawling out of my skin is reading - and I don't mean reading narratives. I've huddled in a pantry forcing myself to read nutrition labels and ingredient lists just to stay calm on a handful of occasions.
It is my everpresent and ongoing nightmare that one day I try and readback my own writing, which any writer or creator will attest is already difficult, and find it so horrible it starts making me sick.
...Though at the same time, recently I've encountered people who have what I can only describe as mediocre or just decently average writing who are making like 42k/year on patreon just pooping out short stories, and it's one of several occasions which has left me experiencing existential moments of questioning. Times where you're like "no, I'm nowhere near good enough to make a living or ask for money doing X" and then you run face first into someone you <span class="mu-i">know</span> is worse than you at something not only doing it, but doing it lucratively, and you start disassociating as you question life.
Anyway this post has rambled on a bit, in summary, things are decent! Much better than they were a year or two ago.
