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Your entire life, you've been obsessed with something. As long as you can remember, you've always wondered how other people see the world.
You have a bit of a reputation for being a womanizer. That's not exactly true; Halam is the Alpha Male (and Supreme Ruler) after all, so he's certainly got more experience in that department then you do. Moreso; you've always been jealous of women. Jaxtian women have a greater depth of color perception then men do. What does that actually mean? Do they see more colors and shades? Does art look more <span class="mu-i">beautiful</span> to them? They seem to feel emotions more strongly too. Are they actually experiencing a stronger emotion, or is merely a reaction that is different to an identical stimulus? Do Nut-Thieves trigger some sort of maternal instinct, or are they actually <span class="mu-i">cuter</span> and more adorable to them, enough for the extreme over-reaction of love and exctiement you've seen some women have for them? How can you look at the same creature and just see a overgrown rodent that's been selective bred to have zero survival instincts and with features to mimic baby Jaxtians? Where's the “magic” response they seem to have?
And it's not just women. That's a bit of a simplification. You know of species with better sight, better senses, a more deep and complete sensation of their body kinematics and motion. You have an artifical Swall inner-ear in your own body; created by genetic tampering. You instinctively feel which way is up and can “feel” the pressure in the air. To you, this isn't special. But if you were born just a few hundred years ago, those sensations wouldn't exist in you. That thought fills you with dread; how horrible it would be to not be able to experience as much as you possibly can! You feel very much like you were blinded and deafened before you were even born!
You were taught, as all Jaxtians are, that what we experience and what we can remember is a product of the brain. You already have a good understanding of how the brain works. Neurons align to specific concepts, and repeated triggers and thoughts strengthen these connections. It is why memories are often assigned to specific scents or sounds; or why memories change as you remember them. The pathways are always been remade. What is a memory, anyway, a collection of images?
The <span class="mu-s">Nerve Cluster</span> though... that changes things. It is a <span class="mu-s">memory</span>, and not merely a collection of neurons to be interpreated and owned by one creature. It's structure is primarily neuralchemical, and adapted to Aristocrat biology first and foremost, but it is abuzz with bioelectric energy as well. Normally, impossible to directly interface with a different creature then it's originator...
