>>5654749Halfway through your renewed make-up, you stop and clear it all off.
The usual simply will not do!
You’ve been walking around with that for years now and did anyone ever ask you out on a date?
No. They haven’t. So, it simply doesn’t work.
Stomping towards your bedroom, clothes fly around your room as you dig deep into your closet.
There are some band shirts you bought but have never worn outside.
You got them when you attended some concerts by yourself, just idling in the back with a mask on.
You look at them, smiling as you recall the memories.
There’s nothing wrong with putting your interests on display.
That’s a good conversation starter.
All the stuff you bought, but have been too embarrassed to wear.
Band-shirt, on! Spikey bracelets, on! Boots, on!
Be proud, Miho! You’re no longer that insecure fifteen-year-old!
You stand tall in front of the body-length mirror in your bedroom.
Then shrivel up, covering your face as you hide from your own reflection.
There’s no way you can wear this outside…
You dig through the closet.
If office attire is too tame, then what about some fashionable streetwear?
That’s what college girls wear, right?
You’re short and your skin is pretty good, maybe you’ll be able to pass yourself off as being younger?
Pulling up your phone, you check online to see what kind of streetwear is fashionable these days.
Things have changed a fair bit since you were in college, but you should be able to pull together a look that’s close enough to what’s trendy if you mix-and-match your clothes.
It mostly seems to be baggy clothes like a large sweater with some kind of print, cargo pants.
That’s all fine and well, but you don’t own any of those.
There’s seems to be a sportier sub-culture of streetwear with denim jackets and crop tops.
That’ll have to do. It seems like as long as it is baggy and oversized then it qualifies as streetwear.
It does look like what you found online, but wearing this as somebody in their late twenties has you feeling self-conscious.
Sometimes you wish you could borrow some of the confidence you display during work and put it to use in your private life.
As you compare yourself to the images you found online you make a startling discovery.
…All these trendy girls have skinny waists and small chests.
Are large breasts unfashionable? Is that why nobody wants you?
A third and hopefully final dive in the closet has you pulling out a compression sport bra.
After replacing your current bra with that one, you’ve managed to acquire a more modest bust.
Do you look like a trendy college girl now?
Or more like a late-twenties hag trying to play pretend?
You’ve been staring in the mirror for too long, you can’t tell anymore.
