>>6120815>>6120825You tell her about your childhood and your teenage years. How you'd spend most of your time outside or locked in your room. How your mother hated you and how your father barely noticed you. About your sister and the things you did together. About the old Kristmas Krew and the adventures, you went on. About... Klara... NO! No... no never mind. Not about Klara. You don't really talk about Klara. NO ONE talks about Klara. You shove that memory deep into the back of your mind and hope it doesn't resurface.
"I'm your first girlfriend, aren't I?"
You nod.
"Why have you never had anyone else? You're not bad-looking."
You explain that you were just never all that good at talking to girls.
"What? You were too shy?"
You nod.
She snickers. "You're so cute."
You sometimes wonder if you could have been a ladies' man. You're not exactly a bad-looking guy, more ordinary. You feel like if you just had some confidence maybe you would have had all kinds of girlfriends... but, you suppose the path you did end up going down led you to Lily, so it's worth it, right? You aren't so sure.
"You know psycho you really aren't bad-looking at all. You're my type, y'know?"
You ask her what her type is. She thinks for a moment.
"Visibly troubled."
You ask her what that means.
"Look at yourself."
You don't know what that means, and you aren't sure if it's a compliment.
"Plus, you're sweet, you could have probably had all kinds of girls swooning. What about that Felino girl, did she ever like you?"
You tell her you don't know.
"I'm sure she did. I'm sure SOMEONE did. How could they not."
You aren't sure why Lily even likes you, or what her type being "visibly troubled" even implies, but she's all you have. Besides... well... Alice. You almost forgot about her... again. Wow, you suck.
"What happened to the other guys? The... Kristmas Krew you said? And your band?"
You tell her. Felino moved to the next state over not long after graduation. She really needed a new start after... what happened. You don't really like to think about that. You're pretty sure Eric moved to Maine with his boyfriend. You've always wondered what happened to him, you were pretty good friends. Pat... well, he's another thing you don't really talk about, but Pat is out of the picture... Thinking about this all gives you a lump in your throat.
"You're lucky you had actual friends growing up... All I had was... people who knew me I guess. I never really connected with any of them. My old band were the only friends I ever really had, but they're gone now..."
>Ask about band>Talk about yourself more>Talk about something else>Call someone>Sit in silence>Cry>Kiss her>Something else 
