>>8568859hey anon. things are gonna open back up in April thanks to the vaccine. have you considered anti-depressants at all? I pre-emptively started taking them again prior to the November election, and in anticipation of the Covid spikes. You may lose your sex drive, but it can really turn the volume down on suicidal thoughts, and general anxiety (at least in my experience). I use prozac.
https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/depression/in-depth/antidepressants/art-20046273