>>8283363I know this feel, anon. It hurts. It hurts everyday. You can't help but think of it at almost every moment of the day because you view it as an extension of yourself, a part of your personality, and who you would want to be if given the choice. It hurts knowing that there is a doll of them out there, but it's close to impossible to get one without getting scammed or paying hundreds of dollars for it. I feel your pain, and I know what you struggle with every single moment of every single day for years/decades at a time.