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There isn't anything wrong about being really passionate about your hobby.
But unless toys are a big part of your everyday life, like in a toy-related job (selling them, writing/talking about them full-time ie. reviewer, making them) they should be just a past time.
If this past time is the ONLY joy in life for you, you should realize you're resorting to escapism and have real life issues that need to be solved.
Once you've sorted your emmotional issues you should also look into other hobbies, as there's many other incredible things about life to enjoy that you might not even know about by focusing too much on a single thing.
Seek help, take care of yourself, and try to enjoy life, it's not as awful as it might seem right now.
To OP, and any anon going through difficulties in their life.