>>7462173>dont post cringe embarrassing shit publicly thats ripe for ridicule>By now most have seen or heard..But my BF of almost two and a half years broke up with me.
And he didn't just break up with me, he sent me a long post, made assumptions on a few things and then blocked me on everything so I didn't even get a chance to talk to him.
I have friends saying he didn't actually care or that he's a coward for doing so and not just talking directly to me.
I..It destroyed me.
Emotionally and on almost every level.
Losing him legit made me almost self harm. I had a complete and total mental breakdown and shut myself off from everything for a few days.
I felt suicidal because he was my motivation for things and mostly because I didn't want to be in a relationship to start out of fear it'd end and be my fault and I forced myself to accept it and for once had confidence just for it to blow up in my face.
I didn't know what to do with myself and I guess I still don't know..
It's very hard to just..move on and be confident with yourself especially when I still feel so betrayed, hurt and angry.
It didn't just hurt me but it affected a close friend and even my Sister because she was starting to talk and socialize with him and it's VERY hard for me to get her to open up and be social about anything really.
I'm still working thru things but I can say safely..I won't be harming myself.
So you cuties don't have to worry.
~Kiva~