>>9231486Your problem is your broken brain.
The two main ways to fix a broken brain is Medication or some form or other of therapy, usually it takes a combination of the two.
If you want solutions, you’re going to need to invest your money in finding the right kind of one or both of those things. (You should probably check references and accreditation for any therapist you try to make sure they probably actually know what they’re doing.)
Also you should probably sell off some of those collections if you’re not actually using/enjoying them and you feel they are a detriment to having people over and forming social connections.