>4 year old nephew and 2 year old niece loves seeing my toy collection, mainly dbz figuarts, street fighter figuarts and X-Men marvel legends.
>comments on how cool and amazing my figurine room is
>loves spotting random figures I might have out in the main house in inconspicuous places
>likes stumbling across random unopened toy boxes I have around the house I haven't had a chance to mess around with
>if it's just a marvel legends or a toy car I'll just let them have it.
>have their own duplo Lego tub in my house in the lounge.
>regular Lego kept away but good to go out once they are of age
>likes messing on the piano when they get bored of lego

how soon are they going to realise that I'm a loser and start to be embarrassed by me? I mean outwardly I dress nice, have a nice car and not a greasy neckbeard stereotype but when will they realise that I'm dorky and not really that cool and most likely will ever give them cousins?

deep down I know my brother only really comes over once a week because I have no friends and to check up on me to see if I am suicidal again which I appreciate but feel guilty that he probably feels like he has to do it like it's a chore.

think my brother will ever mention to them about the time I told him I didn't want to live anymore and how I had to stay with him and his wife for a while before they were born to make sure I didn't kill myself?

will they think less of me when they find out I'm on meds and shit too?