>>7568050Can I ask you guys something? I'm a 24y/o whose entire childhood was founded on my love for toys - specifically Lego, more specifically Bionicle, but generally many kinds of toys, and video games along with it. I put them away once I reached middle-school, but my love for toys experienced a kind of resurrection just a few years later, in highschool, where I would come home and have so much fun laying out a scene with a random selection of toys I had, involving cars, plastic figurines, and environmental sets, that I'd spontaneously create a story for, and animate with my hands. This too, I stopped shortly after. I'm finishing up university now, and feel extremely sad in life. I feel like I'm "playing a part", projecting the appearance of an adult's character to the larger world, when really, deep down I haven't grown far from that same toy-loving child I was. It's just so stimulating to have a bunch of tactile items in front of me, and to use my imagination to animate them into life. But I feel so bad for this, ashamed of myself, as if I have failed to mature.
How do you guys personally deal with it? Do you feel bad? Would you ever tell your friends, or a girlfriend even? How would any girl ever love me, if I still find joy in toys? Are we defective for liking something intended for children? Does it mean we're still children ourselves? I never told anyone in highschool about my toy-hobby, and to this day have not.
I want to gain the confidence enough confidence to play with them on my own, and would love to have a spouse who lets me, but I doubt it'll happen anytime soon.
