>inb4 get help
the mental health system right here is non-existent, literally
>want a new figure
>buy 3 of them
why?
>the first thing that I do is search for QC issues, any flaw, anything, if the figure has one, I must trade parts from the other 3, until the figure is "flawless"
what happens when there's an issue that cannot be fixed
>try so hard to fix it to the point of ruining it
>once ruined I sell it and buy 3 again hoping that now it will come without the issue
>need to check every single figure of my collection every day trying to find a flaw
>if I find one I try to fix it, I'm very bad at fixing things, doesn't matter I'll try knowing that I'll fuck it up
and I do, then my entire week is ruined, and I need more money, as a NEET I'm permanently broke due to this shit, I can't stop buying and every day I literally beg to not find a flaw in any of my figures
also every day losing 3 hours checking the figures and another 5 hours if I find a flaw, most of the time I hurt myself with the tools, I can barely paint so I'm full of paint cans and toxic shit that I inhale
I'm at the edge, the thought of ending my life is becoming my last hope to escape this hell
what the fuck can I do at this point