>>94630I'm not really interested in having sex. Or having any kind of relationships with any human being. I think part of the reason for that is that human interactions have become increasingly dull for me leading to me not seeking them out and eventually losing contact to everyone. The only places I still have social interactions in is hobby sites about extremely specific shit like some 4chan generals and other internet forum threads. I don't even have anything to talk to anyone about. I wouldn't be able to answer simple questions like 'what music do you like' or 'what's the last movie you watched' because I don't listen to any real music only random Touhou weeb shit the Youtube algorithm spits at me and I don't watch movies either. To a normal person I am the most uninteresting person imaginable, and normal people are boring to me so it just becomes impossible to interact without mutual displeasure. I don't want to interact with weebs either because I look down on western weebs, they are failed normies hungry for social interaction and don't even understand the Japanese media they pretend to care about. Indeed besides my lack of desire to form social bonds me being disagreeable and perhaps in parts even arrogant (where it might not be appropriate) is the reason for how I ended up in this state. And you know I don't mind it either, I don't really care about making friends or a lover or social connections or whatever. I have realized it is just something I am hardly capable of because I in my mind kind of oppose the fundamentals of human interactions.
But I don't think that is where my dissatisfaction stems from. My dissatisfaction stems from the fact that I am tired all the time, waste my time the entire day every day with stupid shit I regret afterwards. I want to read books, learn programming or other valuable skills and work on myself as an individual and have a place in the world where I can positively contribute to society while being well off financially.
