>>115062>What do you think were the biggest mistakes your parents made when raising you?Mainly, they failed to make me more disciplined and to make me feel the consequences of my actions. Both of these have made me a worse person mentally, physically and emotionally. I could just get away with anything because they always gave up halfway through the process of teaching me a lesson and I never had to really try to accomplish something because I never felt the need to do so, as I was lazy and didn't care that much anyways when I really should've.
>Do you think you can do better, and if so how?One part of me wants to believe that, yes, I can do better. However, reality says otherwise. Any attempt at improving myself, chasing my own goals or changing my ways has been a failure. At this point I might argue that it's more my fault than theirs, as they aren't at fault for my cowardly, autistic, socialy inept and dishonest behavior. On top of all this, I feel like I have given up on life. I do not really care about anything important anymore, only on stupid bullshit and it's getting harder and harder to keep my interest on that either. To be fair, I should have kms already but I don't have the guts to do it because of human instinct.
>Do you blame them?As I said, I mostly blame myself, but as I have told to my irl friends, I'm really frustrated at how much better I could have been if they tried harder or stopped believing in their headcannon about who I really was and who should I become. The most redeemable thing about them, and for which I'm really grateful for, is that both are hard workers and they have always made sure I had a proper education and quality of life, which is already way better than some assholes who dare call themselves parents.
