>>46998451Part 2, I was part of a professional development program that would have ended with a career that started late last year, into this year. For obvious reasons, the program was moved online, where it was largely fucked, mismanaged, and kept on just enough life support that there wasn't legal grounds for a refund or redo, or mass firings of the people pretending to run it. The shitty instruction lead to all sorts of standards being shifted across the board, which resulted in generally unimportant factors they COULD assess in a virtual environment being assessed with huge weight, and the important shit that they couldn't even fucking teach, let alone assess, that I fucking already knew because I overprepared for this years ago, barely got any weight. Long story short, ten years of preparatory education and training, out the window because I'm a dour and unlikable motherfucker in the one year where personality is your entire grade because fuck content knowledge, we're virtually learning, and I'm more dour and unlikable than ever, because it is taking every drop of energy, gumption, and grit I have to fucking get there.
I fucking DREAD the fallout of this year, as an aside. A program of 60, 90 people, repeated once or twice per US state, where a bunch of people got taught fuckall instead of a rigorous education of standards and generally not being an intellectual fuckup, but have a positive attitude about their frauds of instructors stealing their tuition, jfc.
I already know I'm unemployable on personality, I've tried to get jobs for 4 years, and no amount of degrees or education will get me in anywhere, and now something that WAS supposed to be just on how much shit you know became about personality. I have family support, they genuinely don't care that I'm a failure as long as I'm happy, which makes it hard to complain considering what a lot of people have to deal with, which, first world problems amirite, makes me feel even fucking guiltier.
2/probably 3
