>>33773009>>33773036I've tried hanging and asphyxiation. I'm either tougher than I give myself credit for, or a bigger coward. One way or another your last moments will be panic, that's the catch. You'd be surprised what you can destroy with your bare hands when you're scared. I tried to hack my arm off in anger once and got that fear the second my blood hit my face. It's not the fear of death, it's the fear of realizing you're going to have to watch yourself die painfully.
Drowning is said to be pleasant in the end, but you wouldn't even be there for it. I spent plenty time drinking, smoking or drugging myself into unconsciousness and I know for a fact if someone had held me underwater on one of those nights I never would have noticed.
I would never advocate suicide, I don't think I'd even try again, but I would advocated doing a job correctly. If you're too scared to do it in a way that will 100% succeed, for the love of god don't try it any other way. You'll either survive or die struggling and afraid.
