>>50766986Are you jealous? They'll get what they want. They'll have meaning and purpose and even inherent value to both the life and the eternal soul that they sold so easily and willingly.
I'm *always* watching. I saw your post a few days ago agonizing about how you were never one of her meals squirming in the web she weaves when you were younger. Your reasoning is inherently tainted, innately flawed - sinful even, one might say. Equally sinful is believing that the young and innocent should submit themselves to a solitary existence in order to explore their desires and urges of every kind. One should discover for themselves, decide for themselves by the powers of blood and instinct, what and who is worthwhile. If you give someone all the answers they still won't listen. They still won't learn. They have to touch the stove before they understand that the stove is hot. And she isn't, you aren't, giving them the answers they seek for any reason other than perverse desire in the first place.
Their eagerness to touch the stove sparks a sense of familiarity within you - except you can feel the empty spot where that same eagerness was once inside. You want to fill the empty spot with their energy, to live vicariously through them, to be both the exploiter and exploitee. She in particular surely wants validation from it too, a form of purpose and meaning to let her rise above the stupid senseless chaos that lead to her own exploitation - unsurprising, for a hole that waits to be filled.The only satisfaction the young can bring is by watching them raise themselves into great and powerful existences that fight so -hard- against entropy that swallows them anyways in the end. So many flavors to a nuanced existence, like rings inside a tree trunk.
