>>54994787Hang in there bro! I know life sucks a lot of the time, I've been in and out of those feelings myself since high school, but it's important to remember that craving death (as opposed to less drastic symptoms of depression) is a manifestation of a desperate need for change. Something in your life isn't working be that your job, the people around you, a major loss you're struggling to recover and move on from, where you live, some aspect of yourself you're not happy with, etc. The easy part is figuring out what's making you feel that way, the hard part is figuring out what specifically about it isn't working, the harder part is figuring out how/in what way to change things to make it better, and the hardest part is putting in the work to actually make those changes. But once you've got those answers if you're really at the point of being done with everything then even if change is hard and scary then at least saying fuck it and trying it anyway can't end up worse than going with your last resort so may as well try change first. Personally I find my needs change every 3-5 years so anything steady will eventually bring me right back down, and the cycle of change can in itself be exhausting especially when the things that tend to not work in my life are long-term things that take years to fix like losing interest in my career field shortly after getting enough education/experience to land a decent job, or perhaps I just haven't figured out the right combination of things to still have more good days than bad after settling into a new normal. Life is hard, but at least we can root for each other to keep going.
