>>46743690For the longest time I've wanted a gf, someone to love and love me back, but over the years I've come to the realization that I wouldn't even know what to do with a girlfriend or wife, since I never go out with people, mostly just pull an act to entertain others, and my whole life I've spent doing things alone. All of my hobbies are solitary, and all the years of rotting away inside has turned whatever "real" me there might be into a monster that no one would want to be with, so she would only spend time with a lie I fabricated when she could have spent it with a real person who was better than me. I only see people as puppets now, actors in a play, characters in a story, like no one's really there; they're only figments of my imagination conjured up to allay the apathy of despair.Spheal's a cute bugger, though. I want to pet it.
