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I had to drop out of college 2 years ago because of a mental breakdown I had after a week of being yelled at by my parents about how they will pull me out of college and I will die on my own, all alone, if I didn't do exactly what they said. They've always been controlling, but never outright abusive like that. Shitty timing.
Had to return home because I spent all my money on hospital-related expenses after forcing myself to go in an emergency mental care center. Parents threatened to put me in a home (as in, for schizoids/people who were literally a danger to society) if I didn't bounce back from my depression in 3 weeks and get a job, despite my social worker explicitly telling them that I needed a few months to work on therapy for a ton of issues I have from a pretty stressful childhood (combined with recent events).
So I forced myself to look better, and I just got weekly counseling in place of actual therapy. Counseling is fine, but it wasn't illuminating anything for me so I recently decided I'm probably going to stop.
Today, I'm doing a LOT better, but I still want nothing more than to die and be dead. I literally cannot do a single one of my responsibilities without EXTREME difficulty because I can't will myself to do it. I'm still saving money to move out, but without a degree and nearly 600 dollars to my parents every month, I've only got about 1100 saved.
