>>33599662Stress. Lack of life progression for us both. She was the stay at home mom, I was the bust my ass at 3 jobs dad. But it was never enough. I wasn't helping enough, so I cut a job and try to deligate more time to helping her. Less money, that's no good. I'm not in school, how can I be with all this shit I have to do?
Maybe she just plum got tired of me.
I get that too.
Struggling with anxiety, depression. Got on some meds after she left and just fucking crumbled from there. Sleeping at 9 am. Trying hard to force myself to get my ass rolling but I can't even bring myself to answer the phone now.
I flake on my doctor, on work.
It has cumulated go a point where I am absolutely broken. No savings. No food. Barely ate since she left anyway but sometimes it hurts so bad I had to. Last time I ate was a couple days ago. Had expired eggs from the back of the fridge. Didn't realize exactly how expired they were until a little bit later.
Almost a month.
>>33599768I do not want her to die.
She's a sweet girl, experienced a lot of pain of her own. I want to be the best version of myself I can be, prove it to her. I feel like that's what it would take to fix all this. Even if she never wants me back, I'm still picking myself up.
I'm moving to the desert soon.
Know some people out there. They say they can get me a job at a rent a center right away as long as I can put in the work and not let my sadness lead my life.
All I have to do right now is pack and go. I don't have long for our old place anyway, what with the lack of money and all.
This is a /vp/ post, pic related one of my favorite Pokemon.
