Same.
I use Pokémon and some other things like 4chan to avoid my problems. It really helps in the moment, but I don't know if I can actually say it's done me good considering the stress is that much worse when I actually have to face my problems or get fucked. Shit's a great way to disconnect from things and pretend all is right with the world, but it doesn't make facing reality any easier, you know?
>Too afraid to talk to people>Can't make friends, let alone get a boyfriend>Pretty sure my three friends just tolerate me out of pity>They barely talk to me in the first place>Family disappointed in me>Keep trying to get my shit together only to fuck up because >no social skills>Wind up spending days at a time in my room because I'm afraid if I go out people will see me for the shitstain I am>Only happy times are when I'm under the influence of some substance>Can't even get on proper meds because no health insurance>Even if I had health insurance I'd probably too scared to go to the doctorI'm really glad that at the end of it all, I'm just gonna be fertilizer. At least that's something I can't fuck up. Sorry for blogshit.
>>18613638I- That's a joke, right?
