>>47060803A gf is out of the question, honestly. I have good hygiene, I make friends easily, and I was in very good shape, but I'm not normal and stand out in a group and as such get teased, mocked, laughed at, ignored, made fun of ect and it's been like that my whole life. I feel shame and embarassment when I'm doing social things or getting my picture taken. My self esteem was permanently destroyed. I've been to therapy, burying to build it up is hopeless because its socially acceptable to do the above things and not to stand up for myself and tell people off, so I get beaten back down.
I hate the way I am, and I cant change. I hate the way people treat me, but I can do nothing about it. I hate myself, but I cant fix that. I'm just waiting for my parents to die and distancing myself from friends I don't see regularly so I cam commit suicide and trou le as few people as possible.
