>>56393706I don’t know why, but I think I’m jealous of the life my older sister leads.
I’m an engineer, with a good salary. I’ve recently married, and we’ve been thinking about having kids. We’ve also just got a nice apartment in a nice neighborhood, and I’m my parent’s pride. Yet, for some reason, I don’t feel satisfied with what I got. All the decisions I’ve made in life were heavily calculated, always going with the most benefits and least amount of risk, I’m always worried about the future, my diet, both my health and my wife’s, what our children will be like. It’s just part of who I am, and I guess part of it is that my parents brought me up this way, encouraged it even, since they’re disappointed and upset with my sister.
Meanwhile, my sister has dropped out of college and went into trade school, I can still remember the nights in which she and our mom were arguing, and with our dad sometimes. Nonetheless, I think she’s happy and content with her life. I’ve known for a long time that she was a furry, and a bit queer, since she confided that with me, but she kept it closeted it until she left home. She has a Saab hatchback and some Suzuki motorbike, she works as a mechanic and makes tons of furry commissions, and I always see her eating whatever she wants and going wherever she wishes. She’s in her 30’s, and is single, but I don’t think she cares that much. I’m not supposed to feel this way, but I think her carelessness is what makes her life more enjoyable, while I’m sitting here overanalyzing what’s the best for my parent’s image of me and for my future kids. I love my wife dearly, she’s the one thing I’m absolutely sure about, so I at least have that.
To keep it Pokemon related, my sister and I have always played Pokemon together. She usually beats my ass when we battle each other, I’ve rarely beaten her, even when I tried to be more serious about it.
